OMG. In August I had this lucid dream about the Lakota. LAKOTA : 25th August 2023 This is only happening because a couple of nights ago, this crazy mind had a very lucid dream about the Lakota. Don’t ask! I know nothing about them In Real Life. ***** Next Friday is my birthday. 24th November.… Read More Lakota/Heyoka/Thunder Beings/Horses
Suck souls of energy. I’ve written about this so many times over the years. We ALL can FEEL energy. We don’t all recognise what we feel. Or why we feel drained of all LIFE- blood aka ENERGY. My biggest revelation came years ago when I first interacted with YouTube. Empaths feel energy across W.W.W WI-FI… Read More Modern Vampires
We all possess the gift of intuition. It’s a God-Given Gift. But – the faster, the noisier, the more stressful our lives become, we lose that connection. Many, many people will never even acknowledge their own powers. They consign all and everything inexplicable to the file labelled JU-JU. If it’s not on the news, in… Read More That Still Small Voice Inside
Another day. Another Thank You to Static in the Attic. It only takes a word or a phrase to spark my lonely little grey cell :o) Around the 6:20 mark SitA says The Spirit of Man…. This grey cell did a Quantum Leap to H.G. Wells/Jeff Wayne/Phil Lynott of Thin Lizzy and the “Man of… Read More The Spirit of Man
This empath journey of mine over these last decades has been fascinating. EVERYTHING that I’ve been called out for since childhood and worried/freaked out about/crucified myself for is now understood. Of course there have been times when I’ve been so ripped apart that I’ve believed the/they/them and their vitriol. But – at my age now… Read More One Way Or Another, I’m Gonna Getcha :o)
Being born on the cusp of Scorpio and Sagittarius is bad enough. Mix that with Heyoka Empath Traits and you get dealt difficulties beyond bearing. And gather many, many, many enemies! Yes. I have a gob on me, when pushed to breaking point. The sarcasm is laser-like and instinctive. That lingering sting from the Scorpions… Read More Don’t Get Me Wrong : The TRUTH of ME
I made a live chat comment when the og boy mods came back to take back over from VR, SS, AB, Zaga, etc. All I posted was | THE BOYS ARE BACK IN TOWN WTF? She’s got it, oh Amanda babe( “I remember you always used to call her that,”) she’s got it….I’m YOUR Venus,… Read More WayBack Machine : When The Girls Took Over That yt Channel
Years of telling the truth and pointing out the Screamingly Obvious yet I’m multi-banned and excluded. Then a truth told by me many years ago has now been revealed as FACT and the perps of the cover up are lauded/loved/lavished with praise. WTF? Yep. Macbeth : Fair is Foul & Foul is Fair. Ain’t that… Read More Deeply Confused but Still True to | Why Sigma Empaths Are Never Afraid To Die For What They Believe In
This will link to the only person to whom I’ve given the label PURE EVIL. She was my own personal Lady Macbeth. Her vaunting ambition and darkness has no boundaries, and yet…everyone but me fell for her lies, her incredible ability to subvert and her self-aggrandizement. She’s still a dearly beloved of many and I’m… Read More Empaths Are BORN not Manufactured
I truly, absolutely, bone-deep KNOW this. I’m now 60 years old. My mother died when she was 49. Dad when he was 70. They were both War Babies and brought up by scared and obedient, subservient parents. Jeebs. I will never diss the FEAR and ANGUISH of war. Yet. We are (well my generation) are… Read More Life’s What YOU Make It
It took me over two years of observations before I joined the youtube “Truth” community. I entered the fray because of what was NOT there and because I truly felt that I could add some value. Right from the get-go on my blogs I’ve made zero secret of the fact that I’m a Natural Born… Read More Hijack of The Sacred Clown : Heyoka Empath
BTW : I am a Highlander. Both my paternal grandfather and grandmother are from Highland Clans. It’s in MY DNA…sent to/researched and the results given by complete strangers to me. We are Natural Empaths. Fact. This destroyed my Dad and is trying to destroy me too. Although, unlike my father, I’ve embraced and not denied… Read More The Chosen Ones
In a word : Boundaries. Which is why I have one follower (ME!) and a slew of yt bans. Heyho. This vid is a lovely sync today. I was complimented (I think) by my husband earlier. He said that I never waste words. When asked for an opinion, it’ll be short, sharp and to the… Read More “On This Side Idolatry” : How To NOT Be a Puppet/People Pleaser
Some stuff needs neither book nor priest. Neither church nor scripture. Neither society nor norms. And definitely NOT people who PREACH DOCTRINE. I’ve known, seen, felt, birthed DEATH. Death and I are intimate friends. One day I’ll be there with them all. Just to Rock the Casbah :o) Jackie, the very annoying poltergoost!
OK. Listing a list that he listed. 10 Yup. Suddenly everyone was either Scottish or Scandinavian or Scot/Scandi. Or a Cathar expert or from a family with famous ancestors or a Thin Lizzy fan or….! In the early years, my in-laws would close a door on me to keep me out of their conversations. I… Read More Empath Exposed
Enough time has passed for the healing to happen. With that healing has come a life mission to make others aware of NPD – Narcissistic Personality Disorder. It’s so prevalent and misunderstood. Empaths struggle most with this personality type because we have an innate need to heal the world and everything in it. We are… Read More Narcissus on Echo Beach
This is a real quote spoken by a “real” youtube truther channel. We (empaths) are so much better understood as mentally deranged, Witches, Danger Strangers, Trolls, Stalkers and any other BS they can make up and publish. D’ya know what? This hugely painful and publicly humiliating journey of mine through the past 5 years online… Read More “An Empath Is NOT WORTH Fighting For”
This happens sometimes and it’s something that I can’t control. A massive weeping fit. No idea why, I just started crying my heart out. It’s like something has broken, somewhere, for some reason, and the impact just reached me. I’m a weirdo. But a special kind of weirdo :o) P.S. No.5 – I’ve always blamed… Read More Tears of a Clown
I have owned a book of Marcus Aurelius’ Meditations for half a life time. There is so much of the “stoic” inside of me. Maybe it comes from Lily, my paternal grandmother. Maybe it’s just inborn. For days now a song has been running in my head…Running Up That Hill by Kate Bush. I’ve done… Read More The Meditations of Marcus Aurelius
This is not something that I talk about publicly. I don’t announce all over youtube about being an Empath. This blog is the ONLY place where I discuss it. Empaths are blessed and cursed. The blessings are wide-ranging but the main curse (for me) is loneliness. The very darkest of my life’s trials have happened… Read More The Loneliness of Being an Empath
This is so ingrained in me. If I’m asked to PROMISE and in doubt, I’ll say that I can’t. My word is my dignity is my life. Y’ok. I can tell a little white lie to protect a loved ones feelings. But I’m a Sagi. Tactless or BRUTALLY honest. Both. Only the Strongest of the… Read More DIGNITY ; My Word IS My Bond
Who is/was History’s Greatest Empath? I don’t need a Bible to tell me. Nor a Church. HE was crucified. OK. Not worth fighting for? Well that was stated in a soi-disant “truther” video a few years back. He was talking about Star Trek and that woman who is an empath. Dunno her name. Don’t watch… Read More History’s GREATEST Empath vs An Empath Is NOT WORTH Fighting For
This is a naval term and means raising the Standard Flag onboard. Pirates raised the Skull and Crossbones. The Royal Navy raised the Ensign. Narcissists raise Red Flags. My great uncle, my uncle, my Dad, my Mum, both my brothers and long ago relatives of ours were all Naval Men. That’s why I joined the… Read More Raising The Standard
Disdain is such an ugly yet powerful word. To treat another as if they are unworthy, contemptuous. Mmmn. Being told “just fuck off then” in a live chat is pretty disdainful. Even the channel creator mimed banning me for ever. I have NEVER treated another person with intentional disdain in my life. Sometimes my twisted… Read More Disdain
Oftentimes I’m left sobbing in pain at all the rejections. The lies told about me. The judgements and skewed perceptions. When you are told by total strangers online that the world would be a much better place without you – – !!! I’m an acquired taste that the false, fake & foney despise :o)
And NO. I will never stop writing about this subject because it was REAL. It happened. And it all but destroyed me and my family. OK. Heads Up. Y’all didn’t NEED to publicly humilate. Y’all didn’t need to publicly insult. Y’all didn’t need to ban. Y’all didn’t need to email my friends and family pretending… Read More WANT vs NEED – Again!
Someone just clicked on an old post of mine. I’d forgotten how helpful this was to me at that time. It helps me NOW.
Mixed messages. At one time I WAS seen as fey or sidhe. That quickly turned in SHEE’S FEY- KE. Fake as a photo of a fairy. We Scots/Celts have an inbuilt respect for the preternatural. Exist or not exist doesn’t come into it. There is always a HIGHER realm.
Even now – at my age – it still hurts. Lies are the worst but even evasions or dissembling or attempts to protect with total fibs hurt. I am so NOT perfect. Foibles R Me. And brutal honesty stings like hell but in the long run it’s preferable. P.S. I’m a brilliant critique partner….much kinder… Read More Dirty, Rotten, Scoundrels
I have watched these for years. This one just caused a BIG argument. All I pointed out was that men have no bloody idea about women and sex. When women get to a certain age (post man-o-pause) sex is usually NOT first, last, everything on their mind. So a man in his 20’s is charged… Read More Killer In My Village
From a very young age I was the one always there to help. I got a right beating for coming home from school in Arbroath looking like a pikey. She didn’t even listen when I tried to tell her that I was protecting my little brother from bullies and ended up being beaten by them.… Read More Natural Born Empath & Still Learning How To Protect Myself
Empaths walk into every single relationship, whether that be through friendship/work/romance/acquaintanceship/family et al with only ONE SINGLE MINDSET. We see everyone as equal and good and kind. Even when a few dark things happen (Red Flags in psych-speak) we always give the benefit of the doubt because everyone has bad days and down days. Then… Read More The Curse Inside The Gift
aka How a Pot-Hole caused me to go through a total melt-down. Back with Sod’s Law – but in a deviant way. It all started with a pot-hole. It’s ending with a deleted bank account and a family at war :o( Long. Boring. Story. And I’m all cried out. Yup. Just a soppy sack with… Read More The Pot-Hole, The Tyre & The Tower
I’ve spent too long doing this stuff. Just to have it all ripped apart by the “We Always Win” crew. Nah. Not any more, mes braves. Go back. Go way, way back to my posts from 2018/2019 when I tear the Romans apart. Especially Julius Caesar and all that crap. HIS – story is real.… Read More The Spear of Destiny vs The Spear of Longinus
This is where Eddi Reader entered my life. This album. She’s stayed ever since. I whistled a tune called ‘lazy’ and I tiptoed a very tight lineAll of the time walking backwards, all of the time I was blindAnd the only voice I was hearing was yours inside my headSaying “Get yourself back to the… Read More All or Nothing : The Patron Saints of Imperfection
I can tell you I don’t have money. But what I do have are a very particular set of skills, skills I have acquired over a very long career. Skills that make me a nightmare for people like you. :o)
FFS. A Sagitarrian. A Highlander. An Empath. All the least lovable traits of a girl. Sagi = bolshy Highlander = bolshy Empath = bolshy. Get all three together in one person and you have a very gobby truth teller with zero tact, a total inability to sugar-coat and major internal issues. :o)
The day before this was uploaded I posted this… Falling In Love with Geekdom Yep. I’m honestly beginning to love these two :o) Jeebuth. If she drives through London – Mucho Kudos to her. I did it once. In a Landrover Defender….to Chelsea Barracks and the stress-o-meter was off the scale. I even get panic… Read More High Functioning Anxiety
I’ve watched this girl on and off for quite a while. Last video I saw was her wedding prep. She looked so beautiful. Today she’s speaking for ME too. Right now – the best I get is total isolation. The very worst is my every word/comment coming back to bite my bum. I don’t even… Read More The Cottage Fairy
I am first and foremost a writer. I’ve studied both the art and the craft of writing for decades but everything I’ve read and/or written boils down to one single Universal Truth. THE HERO’S JOURNEY. This is the meaning of life. To live that journey. Joseph Campbell was a great mentor via his books. Robert… Read More Writing The Hero’s Journey
That’s how it started for me. Narc + Narc ua-vs Little ME. Then it GREW. Hundreds of Narcs vs Little ME. There is too much darkness in this world but one small light will always shine. FACT! My greatest weapon was used the day that I revealed my EMPATH Soul. In 2019. LOL. It brought… Read More 2 vs ONE
There is too much evidence collected over the past 3 and a half years (and stored for future use) to make any of this mere coincidence or synchronicity. No matter where I go on yt – I’m followed by demons whose sole aim is to destroy every single connection I make. The one below happened… Read More Demonic Energy & The People of the Lie
And I totally agree with the word – Diabolical. Diablo Devil Dark Disgusting
I only know the b&w film and my own experiences of being told that my work/life/family/thoughts were never mine. I’d stolen them from someone else. And so appears my DEAD father’s name as a yt channel. F A C T There’s been a murder. And no one cares :o( Noice
Churchill coined the phrase. Many another suffered too, including Samuel Johnson and the fictional Sherlock Holmes. What IS “the black dog?” My country is full of myth and legend. We have a myth and/or a legend for all and everything. Scholars spend lifetimes studying and speculating and pontificating. Is the black dog the ghost of… Read More Truth About The Black Dog (?)
Uncontrolled Historian 